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long hours

° pleasure; joie de vivre
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[21 Nov 2005|08:10pm]


It isn't worth using this account to me anymore. This is my last entry. We're staying at the hotel's airport tonight after I go back to his house and get my luggage. I travel alone! I'll be at his house when he gets home from school. I can't wait to hug him! The situation with my Mother isn't improving. She needs to grow up and realize that I'm not her Daughter anymore.
7 s liegt .\|abschied mich ein bündel lügen .

[13 Jul 2005|03:59pm]


All I want to do today is lay around with you eatting crossiants with strawberry cream cheese. I won't tell you that though. I'm hungry for both you & food.

[30 Jun 2005|03:11am]

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music

so amazing.

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The other night was good at Eric's house. Came home and Amit woke me up. Was suppose to work on the site with him & Lenny but they didn't have anything with them so we just hung out & I called David over. Lenny went to work. David & Amit came back. Eventually they left & I had to make a stop somewhere so I had to dress up. Afterwards I got picked up - got Polina. Went to pick up Sainatee but the driver was such an asshole he seriously brought tears to my eyes, telling me I shouldn't volunteer for these things when I don't know what's going on. I felt like I was six years old again and I didn't like it, at all. The show was fine, I took my pictures but felt completely out of place and it wasn't just because I was dressy. I don't have a real reason though. I'm still lost amongst my friends and still feel like I belong in a studio dancing, doing nothing else.

21 questions reminds me of him & I don't know if I have the guts to ask him to his face. I'm so afraid of making a mistake and fucking everything up. Things never were easy for me but never this complicated either. Will I look in his eyes and just see love or false truth? Everything he's been doing or saying could have all been a big lie and if that's the case then why try? I'm losing my mind.

( misunderstand. )

[29 Jun 2005|03:54am]

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mood

high

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Remember the nose bleeds I use to get from snortin?
Rememer when I first sniffed that blow?
Dayumn I misjudged you...
You're like every other ho.
Just gonna be me n' mah Bro.

I don't believe a word out of his fucking mouth, at least not anymore. I can't believe myself either for having feelings for him.
Too late guy, I'm already on my high.

[26 Jun 2005|02:39am]


I'm such a motherfucker.

[25 Jun 2005|09:46am]


Watch the fists. She's got knuckles of steel.

> oben?^


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